OH!!!! Black Dagger Brotherhood, perhaps? LOL It was probably just switched in the post. Amazing books. I just started the second one, but it’s about a group of vampire warriors that are fighting with the Lessers, an undead enemy that are set on destroying every last vampire. So much smut! SO MUCH SMUT! lol The first one is Dark Lover.

LOL You will be so addicted. Also, the Dark Hunter series by Sherrilyn Kenyon. Major vampire smut there, as well.

It is truly awesome to see you back on. We have both been thru RL crapola. I know that the mourning and grief over my brother will never end, but being on here and fb is my escape. I feel as if I talk easier with all of you than with some of my RL friends. I am grateful for that.

I know.. I feel like these past few months have just been a crazy blur. It still does not seem real to me that my brother is gone. I can’t seem to get out of that “acceptance” state, ya know? My mom had brought alot of his things besides the movies. His NY Mets jerseys and t-shirts and a flannel shirt since that is what he loved to wear. It’s so strange. I look at these things and still refuse to believe. I hate that I can’t get past that part yet.

My sisters say the same thing. They go to work, take care of the kids… but once they get that moment to themselves… it’s all they think of and the crying starts all over again. That is natural, though. It’s going to go on like this for a long time. The hardest for me is calling my mom’s house in NY and waiting for him to pick up the phone. Hearing his voice, asking how all the crazy animals are. It’s spooky waiting for that with each call. We knew last Christmas that my hubby’s dad was running out of time. That is the day he passed. We knew about it. My brother… who ever expects someone you love to take their own lives? I think it’s different in the way that we will never really understand why he did it. The questions will never be answered. Why didn’t he talk to someone? There will never be complete closure. It’s so sad and frustrating.

Oh, see… I don’t remember when and who I said that to. It was hard to just come out and say that at the time. I just have to say to myself that he is not suffering, no matter what he was going thru. It’s the people left behind who have to suffer. He is at peace. That does give me comfort.

Oh, man… that is horrible about your brother. My hubby doesn’t talk to his brother, as well. I hate that now that I have lost mine. His does not have addictions but has just manipulated everyone in the family over the years…now he is alone. Very sad. I agree.

With all of that going on in your life, you are blessed to have your hubby and son. Yes. You did not take the same route they did. I have seen plenty overcome it late in life, however. My dad was a heavy drinker and caused nothing but misery during my childhood. When he was around. He stopped suddenly one day, realizing he was losing his family. My mom stuck around because she didn’t work and didn’t know where to go. That was just her generation back then, ya know? He is a different man today. He is just too old to be that angry and addicted, ya know? He is still not as close to all of us daughters as a father should be, but at least he tries now.

Oh, I agree. We all make our own choices. And deal with the consequences. Simple as that. Okay, it’s still pouring here and I’m leaving in a few…. my hour drive will be turning into 1 1/2 now. I hope to see around FB tonight if you have time or back on here tomorrow? I am so glad we are able to talk again. You can message me on fb if you need to talk at anytime. *hugs*

Hope you didn’t work too late. Crazy busy there right now, huh?

Oh, I hope it gets easier, hon. Printing is busy right now. Today is extremely corporate. Guests from other plants have taken over. They come out and ask every little question…do I look like I get paid enough to be your secretary for the day, people? LOL

If I had to deal with numbers at any time, I would do bodily harm to myself. I still count on my fingers, for pete’s sake! I cannot be put in a cubicle. I love being upfront. It’s not the highest pay of the company, but I’m happier than most. And yes, guests automatically assume that you will order lunch, fax, copy, etc… Um…excuse me. I would love to help you. Will you be mailing my check here or to my house?

LOL If I had kids, I would be so screwed with homework! Unless it was something creative….forget it. I am lucky I can remember what I had for breakfast in the morning, let alone what I learned over twenty years ago!!! How exciting for your office! I love new paint! We actually just painted our living room and halls in the house we are renting and now we find out the landlord has stopped paying the mortgage…even after taking OUR rent money. So now it’s time to start looking for a house to actually own. It’s scary, but I am not throwing my money away anymore. It’s pissing me off royally that this guy has taken our money for six months knowing it would be foreclosed on. *kicks desk* Gawd, I wish that was his face!